Monday, April 20, 2009


I know God is in control of all that happens in my life and I trust Him to know just how much I can handle but I still am mad and sad and do not understand why. I look at some of the SMA kids on the Internet and the sweet families they have and I cant help but think how unfair this is to all of us. Now I know no one ever said life is fair and I know God has a purpose in all of this but I hate it. Every Mom and Dad on here I see with their beautiful intelligent and sick child loves them deeper than I can even explain. But then we have to because we may only have a short period of time to love these children. I don't know why I write this except to vent. I am so upset that there are people who have children and don't want children or maybe shouldn't have anymore children and even people who smoke and drink and do harm to their own bodies while pregnant and will continue to have normal healthy children. But enough I love my babies and that should be enough for me. I am and will always be praying for all you SMA families out there and just know I hold you all in a high respect because this is very hard. Rachel and Kim too!!


Darren and Jody said...

Hi Chelsea,
Thank you for your comment. It helps to know there are people that understand what were going through. Sometimes it's very hard to understand why this happens , but I know that everything will be OK for all of us. I hope you don't mind if I add you to our list of friends to follow. Thanks for your prayers and we will keep you in ours.

Victoria Strong said...

I am just catching up and I am so excited that you got your stroller! I know it takes some getting used to, but pretty awesome, right? Is everything fitting okay for you? I can't believe how big Micah is! He is huge!!! Love his cute outfits.

Provl8dy said...

Reminds me of the story of the man born blind (John 9)
Why did this happen?
vs: 3b "...but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life."
You are right to be righteously indignant at the way people discard babies and children. it is maddening! But there is hope in the nail scared hands of Jesus and he is doing a work that is beyond anything we can imagine. You are suffering well my dear sister.

Provl8dy said...

Christians are like nails. The harder you hit them, the deeper they go.

Anonymous said...

These reasons are why I no longer have faith in a higher power. It doesn't make sense that my son who was so loved and cherished was only here for 5 months but other kids are left to endure years of torture. I'm glad you can keep your faith through the journey with SMA. I am a little more at peace without any expectation of a God.

Chelsea Marshall said...

Now I believe that God didn't do this to my son and that it hurts Him meven more than it hurts me. I will continue to wonder why He let it happen but I know that He is in control and if my son dies, even though it will be far too soon for me I know that God saved him from this world. This world full of lies and deciept and sin. My son will never have been lied to and will never had his heart broken, he will never have been let down or led on. I love God for that. I know that God works in mysterious ways and I dont have to understand why He does what He does.

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